I felt like a fish out of water when, long ago, talking to Miranda, I confess that sometimes I'm so nasty that it becomes unbearable she I looked alarmed, for the first time not in complete harmony with me, then he quickly added: "I do not is because, in fact, are much more sympathetic to you." I happened to repeat it to a friend, seeking understanding, but even he was stunned, and the more I tried to explain and I did not understand. In short, the question is simple, perhaps worrying, sometimes I find it challenging and very rewarding to take care of me, figure out what I really want, what I think ... I am assailed by an immense effort, against a deep feeling of dislike that I feel, just for myself. Without considering the amazement I feel when I do hear statements in stark contrast to what I stated above. Not to mention the snachs evening, the adverse indissoluble statements of principle in the morning, I saw a little breakfast with milk, coffee and two biscuits. As if most people in my hotel, each with its own personality, with tastes, ideas, different opinions ... I define "dislike" that I need, urgently, to take everything seriously, and expect to point out who is beside me, to dissect the issues, to keep his word, whatever the cost, to meet its commitments even when everyone else has violated the rule and now no longer makes sense. And when they are "not unsympathetic" are more uncomfortable with myself. That is when I feel like "fuck" when they are inconsistent and "cheat to make the lonely" when the passion takes over and everything I believe, at that moment, I do not think at all. Today, for example, and I'm ashamed to admit it, I was invited to lunch the Mc Donald's: at least fifteen years have passed since the last time I went and I have always supported my utter adversity for this fast food. They invited me and I accepted! Besides, the most surprising thing is that I was good: good for good company, good for the feeling of insane offense, good for the atmosphere of carefree youth, good for the inconsistency ... But from tomorrow I start my campaign of absolute opposition! And he'd been there ... I swear! Neither I nor my children! PS. In this climate of profound confusion HO one certainty: CHANGE 'ALWAYS THERE WHEN CHANNEL' Giuliano Ferrara!
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